Posted April 20, 2013
Do not mistake my kindness for weakness. Do not mistake my weirdness for insanity. Do not mistake my reservedness for inferiority. And do not confuse my mistakes for ignorance. Got it? GOOD.
Scream At Me I Love You
Posted January 29, 2013
Scream At Me I Love You --By Jane Holder I’m insatiable, you know this. I need you to scream it in my face. Scream at me I love you. I don’t hear you otherwise. I need this. I don’t believe you otherwise. I don’t deserve you. Scream it at me in my face, I Love You. Or anything, at that. Rattle the emptiness inside my bones. Until the walls of my chest Echo your profession. Wake up my soul And shake my unfazed mind. Hit me like a ton...
Sick With Hate
Posted September 30, 2012
Before you hate. A whole person, a song, a lifestyle, a race, religion, or work of art. I beg you, first. Consider the qualities they share with you. The ones you don’t hate. Those things you magically expect others to forgive about you. Then at least as you decide to keep your hate, you’ll know. Those parts that you can’t look over when making a blanket judgment, is just a reflection of how you.hate.yourself.
Posted September 03, 2012
Cycle Fuel Resentment fuels Revenge, Revenge fuels Regret, Regret fuels Guilt, Guilt fuels Denial, Denial fuels Repression, Repression fuels Resentment and continues until Maturity breaks the cycle.
Posted August 23, 2012
Bla[me] I hate my body - never doing what I tell it to. I hate my mind - doing things I hadn’t told it to. I hate my heart - always playing tricks on my mind. I hate my soul - always telling my body to hurt people. I hate my spirit - it’s never part of what I do. But most of all, I hate myself for always blaming those mistakes on someone else.
Posted August 13, 2012
Hiding Even if you see a light on behind these eyes, I assure you, there's still no one home.
Posted August 08, 2012
Self-absorbed I'm breaking the fourth wall in this Utopian masquerade of a life like it’s the Truman show. Fuck this audience.
Your Coma's in a Daughter
Posted August 06, 2012
Your Coma's in a Daughter My doc said he’s got some good or bad news for me. He said he doesn’t know how much longer I have to live and ordered me to go out and live as normally as possible, but try to be careful. He told me I could die at any moment from a car crash, house fire, falling piano, choking, or even slipping on a banana peel. “You’re slowly dying, Jane. I can’t tell you when, or how, or why, and even people with terminal cancer could outlive you, but there's no guarantee...
Posted July 26, 2012
Self Worth Sometimes you live your whole life trying so hard to impress this one person, and you work so hard trying to convince them that you're good enough, but when you don't get it you start to doubt everything you used to pride yourself on... ...but today, I finally heard what I'd always needed to hear. At last I feel peace knowing I have her sincere approval as I looked into her teary eyes through my own reflection in the mirror.
Posted July 21, 2012
Old Stranger I see you everywhere and I hate it. I see your eyes in every stranger’s eyes. The voices tell me it’s because I miss you… But I know better than to believe them again. I know the real reason is because I don’t even know you anymore. But one thing is for sure, You’re less of a stranger now than when we were together.
Posted July 18, 2012
I Promise It’s the fly that flew into my ear. I don’t feel the same with it and I can’t ignore its buzzing. Legs are casting tickles down my spine. The more I tell myself it’ll go away soon, the more annoyed I notice myself getting. It was amusing at first. But now I’m growing weary from its unbroken screeching, as it tries to escape. My eardrum maze dooms it impossible to make an exit. I regret complaining before it was in there, but I’m starting to forget who I was ...