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When knowledge isn't always good to know...!

August 24, 2012

I find it amazing that just 5 weeks ago I was beginning to attempt to get my creative flow going after so long being Missing in Action.
In the last 14 months,I can safely say that life has been pretty rough for me regarding health issues,but then again as we get older things always seem to go a tad wonky,so hence the Hiatus of creativity!
I have now discovered I have an AAA (Abdominal Aortic Aneurism ) and it has knocked me absolutely stupid.
I had to be scanned as a Brother and Sister have both had this and the Doctors advised that the rest of the Family be checked as it can be herediatry,not dreaming that there would be anything sinister going on with me as I have had more than my fair share of health issues during my 60 years.

I can safely say that "I wish I had never been tested for this AAA" ,because now as I wake every day,that massive black cloud is hanging around and it's scary.

I was told to carry on as "Normal""....but how can I ?
I will be monitored every year to check on the size of the Aneurism,because at the moment it is about 2" and it will grow slowly. but surely!

I am coping I suppose,and yet something like this changes your life forever..no longer in control as I see it and I'm a shadow of my former self I believe.
I feel that I am living with this time bomb inside me,and that knowledge is really a death sentence.