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Posted by canvasvoice on August 26, 2011
the love that blinded my eyes also closed off the inside, i was living a lie just to live by his side (canvas text)
Blog about the piece: I have had a love. And really those words are enough. I have HAD a love, as many of us have. One that came before now, that was my safe hold, that was my forever and became oh sooooo familiar. It was the familiarity that kept me coming back. Even when I felt like the best thing was to walk away. Because who wants to start over? Who wants to go from sleeping beside a partner to curling up alone? Who wants to lose something without knowing they will find something better or without knowing they will be enough? it's those feelings that had me off kilter. I lost myself there, in that love. But I also found myself too. In the end I was more me than I had ever been -- more aware of what I wanted, what I needed. I was more aware of what words my inner truth spoke. And I never listened before, but it was oh so clear after all the tears. It wasn't right for me. He wasn't right for me. But I will never love him any less. I will just love myself more.